When I started this blog I had this romantic idea that I would have time to write these prophetic entries on a regular basis. As I revisit it this morning I was immediately reminded of the Thanksgiving entry I had started and never finished. Sooooo… it looks like finding time was a tad more challenging than anticipated. That said… I’m rarely at a loss for words, so I’m back for another round.
We all put a lot of pressure on ourselves. Since the beginning of this parallel Covid universe we have heard about using our time to learn languages or master a new skill. Much like many others in this collective trauma, I tend to fall in the camp of feeling overwhelmed and paralyzed at times. Between social justice and civil rights, politics and the constant shit-storm engulfing the Republican Party, and existing in this global pandemic things can feel pretty heavy. Toss in my own depression and anxiety and its a less than tasty recipe. So what’s a girl to do? Take a step back and a deep breath.
Things are typically hopping in the bakery, but on slower weeks like this, I have a little more time to reflect and regroup. Where would I like to see The Blakery going this year? Partnership. What local coffee shop or restaurant needs to up their pastry or dessert game? I would love to join forces with a business in need of a delicious boost and maybe, just maybe, have a location where folks can elect to pick up orders instead of delivery (especially for folks living on the fringe of Boone County… I love bringing you baked goods, but damn… you live far out!!). I also need to hire a part-time delivery driver for busy weeks (Columbia is freaking sprawling!!!) so I can spend more time baking and less time on the road. If anyone knows a nice retiree or student who wants a little folding money, send them my way! As far as products go, I’m focusing on dessert. I want to incorporate more dessert offerings into the Dessert Blakery Box so folks can get a little taste of our specialty cakes with the ability to mix and match flavors. I’ve also been busy testing recipes for a creamy, delicious Latin style flan and rich, New York Cheesecake (with an optional raspberry swirl!).
I think I gained ten pounds just writing that last sentence. Oh wait… that happened while eating said test recipes. Ha ha!!
The other thing you may be seeing more of is…. me! Funny story, after nearly six months of missing a lower front tooth (did you know teeth can start reabsorbing themselves??) while going through the implant process, I finally have all my teeth again! LOL!!!!!! Having a mask mandate couldn’t have come at a better time for me. Incidentally, I fully recognize that masks are a luxury that none of my veterans struggling with homelessness and horrible oral health had… they lived nearly every day with pain and humiliation. Not a day went by that I didn’t think of the stigma they faced on the daily… and the strength and determinism it takes to persevere indignation and judgment. I will be forever grateful for the many lessons I learned from them. Now that I’m feeling more presentable, I’m looking forward to making some short clips of baking tips, behind the scenes bakery action, and sharing coveted Blakery recipes! Let me know if there is something you’d like to know more about!
So that’s where I am folks. Sitting with my depression and hope, my paralyzing fear and unbridled enthusiasm and holding space for the highest good to unfold at the right time and place. And you better know I’ve got the best damn baked goods to enjoy along the ride.